I don't know what God has in store for me this year and next year. Yet, I still struggle with trusting him. When I was in twenties, I was sure I had God in the bag. I realize now, I don't have it. God is calling me to continue to pursue him. I have found myself pursuing the temporal things. To be honest, I want more of life. The problem with wanting more; it easy to leave God out of the equation. God does not want to me to leave him out of the equation.
Okay, I am not in to math. I am a terrible counter and subtractor. But, I realize if I try to subtract God from my life, I am going to be in big trouble. This has been my trouble during this semester. I realize the problem with the trusting him in the equation is my problem with surrendering. I have sung "I surrender all." The question is do we really want to surrender our lives to him? Today, I want to give him all my life to him. When I do this, I am able to trust him.
Love,
Le Le
